I've got a few minutes before the dryer finishes, which I think it is pretty much what EVERYONE is waiting for on a Sunday night... am I right?
Thinking, though I can't say long and hard... more like short and shallow... Thinking about MOTIVATION. Or the complete absence of motivation. Perplexed why some people have it in spades while others don't even have it at all. Does motivation really just mean 'whatever is important to you'?? Like-- if all you really do is lay on the couch eating ice cream, are you motivated to be doing that? The conventional wisdom (ie, cliches) would say that you are not motivated at all, rather just fucking lazy. But perhaps instead of being completely unmotivated, you're just motivated by different things.
There are things I *want* to want. I *want* to care about metadata, CSS, APIs. I *want* to enjoy going for a run. I *want* to love broccoli. I *want* to learn to shred a Kirk Hammett solo. But even though I am telling myself I want those things, I know I don't want them-- otherwise I'd be doing them.
Life is a riot.
